Fuzzy Interference and Silence – Part 3

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(From Leslee: I’m posting this in three parts – all on the same day – because of its length. Through these articles I’m sharing some personal points of view and explaining why I didn’t post regularly on my blogs for several months recently. These are all my words and opinions… aside from the Ghost Radar.)

23 March 2014

As I stepped back and took a look at where I was sitting in the big picture, I realized that I didn’t really want all that information. It was really distracting, and left me wondering if I still had any focus.

I understood that friends in all of my circles were frustrated and confused for a variety of reasons. They so badly wanted things to get easier, better…

I asked Heruka: “Really, why am I here? What benefit is there to my following these interests that trail down so many paths? None of them really seem to offer answers, at least not quick ones.”

I came to understand more deeply what I had begun to see in 2010, and was seeing even more clearly in 2012: Change takes time.

I think most of us really don’t want to go inside, do we? We actually kinda like it here, I think. It’s like solving a puzzle out here. If we go inside, it’s all up to us, because we see the illusion and lose the drama. Damn.

At times I would sit and request Adama or Ashtar Sheran or Mikos and others to tell me all kinds of inspiring things about what’s going on [fully]. I wanted to offer something to others, to help bring answers, encouragement. But I often found myself in Fuzzy Interference with them, too. It seemed as soon as a message would begin, I saw that what I was seeing or hearing was one version among many, of a possible outcome for…anything and everything. It was too boundless, too unclear.

And when the conversation ended, I still needed to go eat something and sleep and get to work on time. When I realized they couldn’t actually transport me out of that situation, their words didn’t seem quite so alluring. Especially when I knew that there were at least 20-gajillion other ways things could unfold. So if I got too wrapped up in the scenarios they were showing me, I lost track of where I was and [on] found myself even more frustrated by my day-to-day routine. [kept] I saw things moving both quickly and slowly, but that the significant changes only became apparent when I relaxed and did things I enjoyed.

I found that when I asked about Ships and Disclosure and Cities of Light manifesting, I didn’t like what I was seeing, didn’t want to share it. I didn’t want to be the bearer of slow tidings, much less the bearer of the news: “You’re not likely to see it on solid ground any time soon.” I projected onto others and myself: “We don’t want to hear that it’s in our hands. We don’t want the responsibility.”

We want the Cobras and Adamas and Metatrons and Keshes of the world to fix things for us, because we think the problem lies outside. Am I right, or am I just projecting?

That energy of focusing on something hoped-to-come leads me away from bliss. It draws me into wishing for something else, and while I’m doing that, illusory time passes and I find I haven’t enjoyed myself or helped anyone. Worse yet might be the possibility of finding regret lying in my path. No thanks.

I sort of went on strike for a while: Let me just live for a while, okay? I need a break.

Then, at some point, I realized that I really missed my friends, my community online. And that perhaps what I was experiencing might be of some value to others. Maybe I didn’t need to understand fully what was going on; I just knew that it was time to reconnect and start posting again. And to just lay it out as I see it and not worry about whether it’s what anyone wants to see or hear.

I also realized that I wasn’t being told these things would not appear – whether we’re talking ships or cities. I just wasn’t being given much detail or explanation. I needed to get over my personal wish to have the complete picture with all the answers before sharing things publicly. I just needed to trust and share the pieces.

In the midst of all that became more clear the role that meditation plays. I saw that even if a fleet of gorgeously radiant light ships were to land tomorrow and instantaneously offer everything we’ve all wished for, I wondered if we would know how to respond. Would we know ourselves well enough to honor that gift? I wasn’t so sure. What could improve that situation? Not the defeat of archons or currency changes or dissolution of governments, or even free energy. We could manage to screw up all of those opportunities if we don’t have the presence of mind to understand how we exist, where we come from and where we’re going, and to know how to check our own motivations and maintain our compassion and empathy.


So I saw I needed to say not only “It’s not gonna happen until we’re ready”; I also needed to say “We ain’t ready yet.” I don’t like that: being the messenger, or the message. But there you have it.

So this is why I press press press about working with the mind. It’s the root of everything, and the only thing we can control.

Fortunately, I’m not alone. I notice lately there are more and more people saying this, directly and indirectly, through many media in many walks of life. I’m so glad. Eventually it will become a part of culture and that’s how we will get ready.

Okay. Finally, I think I’m done for now and yes, that bloody FI has passed.

Thank you for reading, and for sharing this path with me. We will get there.

Whirlwind Hiya!

Greetings, Everybody!

Well, I’ve landed in Atlanta again, for just a few days while I finish up my packing, visit with my son, and get ready to make the final move out to Colorado… So, this will be a short list of bullet points, just to try and share some tidbits with you all! I apologize in advance for not taking the time to add links, but I imagine/hope that if you search for the things I’ll mention below, you’ll find what you’re looking for…

• The Transformation 2012 Conference with the Institute Of Light was AMAZING! Three days of 6-7 sessions (per day) of wonderful presenters, on a wide range of Ascension-related topics. I hope to make the time to blog about most of the presentations (I missed a couple), and that window of time for me will perhaps open in September.

• I wish for everyone on the face of this planet to experience the feeling of light and high-vibrational energy that was shared at that gathering… It gave a powerful insight into what’s possible when we focus our energy positively.

• One thing I learned that is of great significant to me and (I expect) also to several of you, is that I’m learning just how deeply the Galactic and First Nations roots intertwine. It’s staggering. Western Culture reinforces a 3D view and a lower vibration. It’s that simple. It doesn’t have to be that way.

• If you have a few moments, please go to this page and check out the websites of the various presenters… All were remarkable, and some may have posted about the Conference…

• There will be a powerful 9-day meditation beginning on August 30, during which many will meditate on taking on, and transmuting the suffering of the world. Kuthumi speaks of this through Norma Milanovich, and I’ll be posting more about this soon as well. Please try to keep these dates in mind – it is a every powerful opportunity!

• It was delightful to be among folks who consider our Galactic families and Inner Earth to be a matter of fact!

• The area of Pagosa Springs and Chimney Rock is incredibly powerful, spiritually and energetically. It was every healing and energizing for me to be in a part of Gaia that is so magnificent. In that area, it’s astounding to believe that “mankind”, “civilization”, or “progress” would pretend to be entitled to domination of nature and the planet… Or of the mind and spirit…

• I managed to go crystal-hunting in Arkansas a couple times, near Mount Ida, and that is an incredibly powerful location too! The region may not seem as dramatic as Mount Shasta, but there are similar energies and ways of life, lying dormant and beneath those mountains. If you have the opportunity to visit there, please do so with respect and gratitude. There are beings in that region that are anchoring significant energies for us all.

• I felt humbled to be among people who have been “doing this” for decades, very quietly, confidently, and persistently. There is much to share, between the information that we are all able to gather over the internet, and the earlier generation of Explorers who have much to teach us.

• I’ve become a little addicted (smile) to people’s reactions to Abi-Qor! It’s hard to describe how wonderful it feels to watch people look at the early images, and begin to glow and say, “I’ve been there!”, or, “I had a dream about this!”, or “I sat right there in a vision!”! I’m not on the computer that has the Abi-Qor images that we presented at the Conference, but I’ll share them soon…

• I’m excited and honored to be working with Mark Kimmel, Adrial, and the dozen or so other amazing beings (human and otherwise) who are involved in the Institute Of Light. It’s very clear that there will be a lot of activity from this group regarding Ascension, and education, and preparation for moving – permanently – into 5D!

• I’ve been getting some personal lessons about telepathy, and had my first real hands-on experience of sensing and following remote communication with another being. There is vast magic in this world, just waiting for us to tap into it!

• In talking and working with some folks who have been interacting with ETs for some time, I’m learning that we may travel (both within and without our physical bodies) much more often than we realize… And that portals and dimensional gates are very real. In fact, for some “people”, traveling in this way is a matter of daily occurrence.

• Probably most importantly, I’m learning even more deeply that we are ALL constantly guided, and if we focus our intention we are protected, and may move forward with a lightning-fast pace, into amazing worlds and understandings… For the past two days in particular, as I’ve been moving within my “old familiar” environment, I’ve been getting so many lessons that when we simply surrender to a way of thinking and perceiving that is beyond 3D (beginning with love and trust), magical synchronicities begin – and continue – to occur. More importantly, I’m being shown some ways to identify when we are shifting from 4D or 5D back don into 3D, and I hope to be writing more about this soon.

Well, I hope that shares enough of an update to convey how happy and excited I am about many things that are going on in our world right now!

I hope to find a little time to write in the coming week, but thank you for sending along your thoughts with me until I get settled into Pagosa next week!

By the way, I have only had time to read personal emails (not comments on posts), so if there is something you really need to communicate with me about, please email me… I’m at least looking at those!

Sending much love and light to you all, and hoping to see you on many dreamflights soon!