Valiant: Thunder and Lightning…The Beast…

*SONG* “Stronger” by Trust Company

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E8mOJg2Ky54

This is not fiction, nor a joke…
Please do not read this if you’re afraid…
But it has to be told…

From the moment we are born into the world
Everything is a wonder, our senses devour
Information through our eyes, ears, noses…
By things we touch…how it feels…
And the intense ceaseless explosion of
These feelings…trying to explain it with
Words…by how we’re taught to rationalize
And define it all…
Love, hate…Joy, fear…Worry, regret…
Yearning…Passion…Instinct…Desire…
And through it all you keep moving…
Breathing…Sustenance for survival…
There’s barely the time to react…
Only so many hours in a day…

The days, weeks, months, years of our lives…
Age…To find reason and purpose in it all…
Who we are, what we are…The why’s,
Why we’re here…What’s it all for?
What did I do to deserve this?

Morality…Virtue…Right and wrong…
The soul, spirit of the person has basically
But one choice to make to define himself…
To choose between good and evil.

There is an angel on every shoulder
Whispering guilt and conscience…
Frivolous joys and good tidings…virtue…
And then also behind every ear,
The unending taunt of the darkness…
The pursuit of desire, to build the ego…
Indulge, justify…Take not give…
Want…Have it…You deserve it…
Who cares…
The Dark Side is a powerful voice…
So tempting that no one can completely
Resist it unless they were a saint…
So then define sin…define saint…
Such a serious tone…Get to the point…

We live in a physical world…
The logic mind, and typical skeptic
Will explain this ten-fold…Ask any
Scientist…mathematician…you will get
A very firm cold answer…

When new life is born…Feel it…
Anyone will attest to a miracle…
Talk to someone who’s dying…
Ask them about the limits of the physical
World…What is real, what has meaning?
Money? Physical laws? Justice?
Prejudice? Ask a thousand questions…

No, we live in a multi-layered world…of
Flesh and blood, and spirit…of good and evil…
And the burning desire for more…to keep
Going…Moving, thinking, feeling…Discovering.

Science will forever be flawed until it
Recognizes the spirit…
As justice will be flawed as long as paychecks
Are involved…
And no matter what anyone tells you…
They will ALWAYS judge a book by its cover…

And the greatest treasure that exists
Is that which you find in a soulmate…
In the connections you make in friendship
And love…uncondiontally…When someone of
No family tie finds within you a mutual
Infinite bond…And back and forth this
Bond fortifies and nurtures the souls without
End…That’s a miracle, that’s a gift that
Money just can’t buy.

If life were perfect…soulmates would be everywhere.
Like that Walt Disney song…
“In My Favorite Dream…”

Unfortunately, life is far from perfect…
In fact for many it is a relentless struggle…
It’s a mystery…

And again, a guiding voice beneath a guiding
Light…said the words… “I know you don’t
Want to…But it’s time now, tell them
About the Beast…Don’t hold back…”
They stood there as comfort, counsel
And strength… “Tell them…”

In the mid 1990s, when I was struggling
To find direction I had given up on art
And instead found comfort in journal writing…
These were like diary writings, recording
The craziness of dreams that haunted me
For years…
I tried to write it down, but it was hard
To find sense in any of it…These included
All premonitions and psychic experiences…
And encounters with the Shadow People…

The Shadow People were these dark apparitions
I had seen for years…
Like shadows cast against walls and on the
Ground…But these things moved on their
Own…no one noticed them? I could see them,
I don’t know why…They would frequently
Jump into people’s bodies…their posture
Would change, and they would say and
Do awful things…When they left the
Person, the person would fall into a deep
Dark despair of hopelessness…not knowing
Why…I had tried to explain it to some
What I saw, but it only freaked them
Out and they didn’t want to discuss it…
It’s not that they didn’t believe me, they
Simply found greater peace in denying it…
Too much to cope with…

Denying something is often the most common
Thing you find when people don’t want to
Discuss things…which doesn’t help things
At all in reasoning…People need to discuss
These things…For real…To fight them, to
Find out how to figure out why things
Are so messed up…
That’s why people need to come together
To discuss things, share their stories and
Views…not claim one knows more than
Another…Too many are afraid to speak…
Mostly because there are too many
Who don’t shut up long enough to give
Them a voice…
I was always told to shut up and listen…
The only reason I write these things
Now is to hopefully get people to talk to
Each other more…

The world is falling apart because for too
Long things that should have been discussed
Were not…People were told to shut up
While the bullies pushed their opinions
Under the veils of law…religion…ruling…
May the future become brighter through
Greater reason in discussion…
Even if it must come by regressing to
The old ways of story telling over campfires…
Woodstoves…or a dinner table…

It was in the 1990s that I had many
Visits in dreams…Time travelers…
Medicine men…Aliens…The mysterious
Strangers, such as the beautiful red headed
Woman of the garden…The tall mysterious
Pale stranger whose voice visited me
For years…But the worst by far was the
Visit of the Beast…

I dreamt I was asleep…and awoke
In the early morning hours before dawn…
It was the strangest sensation ever…
Like being summoned…
‘Awake, Bill…Come to me…I see you…’
So I rose from a dark foggy state…
To a heavy shadowy light…
It felt like rising out of mud, weighted
Down struggling to see…in a world
Blackened…Empty trees…ghostly houses…
The worst feeling ever…
The strangest part was that everywhere
I looked there were people, lying on
The ground deep asleep, breathing in
The mud…I had no idea what this was?
This voice, deep and awful, kept calling
To me, ‘Come to me…I see you…’
So I ended up walking through this
Sea of mud-covered sleeping bodies…
Through my street, neighborhood…
Until I reached my former local high school
Around the corner…
The closer I got to the school, the
More people I found laying asleep in the
Tar-like mud…more and more until I
Was literally stepping over bodies…
Constantly drawn to that voice…
Eventually I came to the school…
Went inside…There were people literally
Laying in heaps asleep everywhere…
That voice pulling…
And then, there on a platform on the
Staircase in the commons of the school
He, It, stood…This…Beast…
He was tall, blond…of human form…
Of his choice…well built…
But there was nothing else human of him…
His eyes were black terrible orbs with
Red-slits for pupils like a snake…
His teeth were white as he smiled at me,
Sharp…with black gums and a red
Serpent-like tongue…The clearest sensation
Was that I was looking at the devil.

“Hello Bill.” He said in a voice I can only
Describe as echoing, vibrating, awful…
Imposing, menacing…fearless…arrogant…
“I see you…” He said. “You’re very interesting.”
All I could say was, “OK?”

He watched me, I watched him…
I knew he knew what I was thinking…
What is this? He just looked around carelessly with pride
At all the sleeping people…silently telling
Me, yes…they’re mine…This is mine…
Everything belonged to him…

I cannot believe I was able to speak…
“Are you the devil?” I asked.

He laughed…That smile, the black gums
With the white teeth and tongue…
It was a nightmare… “Me? No?
Is that what you think? Oh of course…
That’s what they teach you…The ONE…
The only…” He just laughed. “There
Are many of us.” He studied me…
Seconds? Hours? Forever? Blinking
With those black eyes, those penetrating
Red-slit pupils… “Let me introduce myself…
My name is…”

I cannot say his name here…
If I reveal it to the masses, he said
It would bring death to me or my family…

My eyes exploded, I was afraid.

“Ah, you know the name then?” He asked.

Yes, I silently nodded…I knew it from
The bible, but I could not believe what
It said to my ears and mind…That name?!

It was not Lucifer…he came before…
Nor Baal, who came long ago…with
The First…
No, this was another fallen angel…

“I wanted to meet you…” He said
Calmly…standing proud over the sleeping
Bodies…I couldn’t speak… “You’re very
Interesting…”

???
“Yes, you.” He said. “You resist…it is
Pointless you know…Admirable, yes…But
Still pointless…They,” he gestured to
Those asleep, “all do my bidding…or
My brothers…Whether they know it or
Not…They do…That’s why they cannot
Control themselves.”

I wanted it over fast whatever it was.

He just watched me… “I want to make
You a deal…You leave me alone, and I
Will leave you alone…That’s fair?”

I was wordless…??? What could I possibly
Do?

“You’re awake…And I know what you
Did.” He said…referring to the secret. “I
Know…Yes, you’re very interesting. And
I will even make you an offer…Say
My name…call my name…work for
Me…And I will give you anything you
Want…Fame…Fortune…Movie stars…
Anything…They’re yours…Think about it.”

I was like…huh? What?

“But…” He said… “Say my name, or
Tell anyone my name and it will cost
You a life…family, friends…secrecy,
That’s the key word. You understand
Secrets, right? How they work?”

Yes, I knew what he meant…You
Could tell someone you trust…maybe
Someone close…But not everyone…
I could only nod.

“So what do you think?” He asked.

I could not speak.

“Will you leave me alone?” He asked.
“Because you cannot fight me…These
Are my puppets,” he said of the people,
“And they will do as I say…or my
Brothers…They have no will.”

“OK.” I could only mumble afraid.

“Good boy.” He said. “Now it won’t
Be so bad…Just let me do what I
Do…And you…may live…”

“What are you?” I asked without
Thinking.

“I am the Great Divider…” He explained
Flatly…solid, strong… “Conqueror and
Divider…That is what I do, that is
Why I came here…That is what I
Did before…That is why I came to
America…My brothers all have equal
Purpose…We do our jobs well…You
Know your history…Who does it belong
To?”

I swear I was shaking.

“You chose to walk this road, Bill.” He
Said. “You could have just fallen in line…
But…we know how that went…”

He knew I was sensing greater meaning
And I didn’t like it so drew things to a
Close.

“You are very interesting…” He said…
He knew my future, I know that now,
But was not about to reveal a clue, nor
Ounce of hope, nothing…nothing that
Would shred his imposing force…
“Think about what I said…You won’t
Ever forget it…Now, you can go…
And when you wake up…Remember…”
He gestured around… “It’s all mine…
You leave me alone…And I will leave
You alone…”

It ended…I awoke with the WORST
Feeling…I was sick for days…I never
Forgot…And yes, I have his name…

And without Fail…Whenever I say too
Much…he reminds me of what he can do.
This isn’t a joke…
And the internet is the easiest game board
For Demons…remember that…
It never ceases to amaze me…
How good and evil exist in the world,
So obviously…yet people dismiss it
Or rationalize it…conspiracy theories…
When it’s usually far simpler than that…

But you know how this went…
After the Beast visited and introduced
Himself…I was afraid, but I didn’t give in…
All of my life I was tormented by this
Darkness…Nightmares, Monsters that
Shouldn’t have been real…The Shadow People…
Of course at times it was unbearable…
I was driven to extremes…but we’ll get
To that later.

Where was God through it all? Heaven?
Angels…? I went to church, I studied
The bible…Yet these things kept happening…
I was obsessed, compulsive prayer…
Hundreds of times a day…
That’s how I began the Quest to find
The higher power…
The meeting with that tall mysterious
Pale Stranger…The one whose voice
Echoed in my ears for years…
The one who challenged me… “You
Are so interesting…You know what to
Do…Why don’t you just do it?” He asked…
The Tall Fearless man…The one who
Inspired me with his bravery…The one
And only man I had ever seen, met…
The one who could walk right out into
The universe and was afraid of nothing…
The man I knew as Varence…

And so my Quest began to reach out to
Find a way to contact Heaven…To at least
Seek out the counsel of a soulmate on
Some higher level…

In the summer of my 27th year…it began…
Research…guided by intuition…dedication…
Faith…To find a way…9…
99 days…Then on December 31st 1999
At 3:00pm in the afternoon he came…
I got my answer…He put his hand inside
My head…put something there…And I was
Born again…And the job began then
Without hesitation…The artwork…The
Paintings and drawings…The lock, the keys…

And through those years the dreams of the
Others…From the Great Hall…These people
I knew from the dreams…
Then they, we…were hunted…The numbers
Dwindled…down to 5…

In 2009 it culminated with the Ancient
Prophecies…The Shadow People, the Creature
That tried to rip the light from my head…
And the Crystal Skull that appeared to
Download all of my work and experience…
To then command awaitt activation…
Await activation…

2012…The nightmare deaths…The little
Old Asian Man Ascended Master’s command…
The posts began…St. Patrick’s Day…
Everything happens in the spring…
Wake Valiant…The artwork then became
The writing…As he said… “This is how it
Comes…From the mind…Down the arm
Through the hand, the fingers, the pen
To the paper…” The posts…

So much has happened…Is happening…
It isn’t ending…it’s just beginning…

But then you see the Beast did come again…
December 29th 2014…Just before
New Year’s…to warn me about 2015…

In a dark dream there was a knocking
At the door…I got up from my bed
Asleep…To answer…And there stood a
Tall black man…
“Hi,” he said, “Do you remember me?
I was your best Friend in the real time
Line…” And then, he took out a knife
And slit his throat…fell to the floor
In front of the door before me bleeding
To death…his eyes rolled over black with
Red slits…It was the Beast in disguise…
And he laughed loud, hard and wickedly…
“You forgot me, Bill!”

I slammed the door shut and backed
Away horrified…his voice tormenting me…
“Bill, I see you…I know what you’re
Doing…”

Then silence…A pause…
Then another knocking at the door…
This beautiful blond girl…calling to me…
I opened the door…Confused?
“Hello,” she said, “Do you remember me?
I was your girlfriend in the real time
Line, Bill. Did you forget? Do you remember?”
Again…she withdrew a knife…slit her
Throat…The blood…Fell to the ground
Bleeding to death…Those eyes rolling over
Black…The red reptilian like pupils…
Laughing wildly… “You’re dead! By the
Time I’m done with you, Bill, you are
Going to wish for death…”

Over and over the knocking at the door…
I could not wake up! The faces, the
Voices…of those I knew? Or should have?
Throats slashed…Those black eyes…
“You forget…All that I am…In
All that I am…What I can do…I
Will turn everyone against you…no one
Will believe you…I will get them to
Stop reading…They think they’re special,”
He laughed, “They think whatever I
Want them to! Believe you? Who do
You think you’re dealing with?”

I was terrified, I could not wake up.

“I see you…I see you…I see and
Know what you’re doing…” the Beast
Said. “You won’t change anything
Until I want it to…We want it to…”

What woke me up was his visit to
This black woman…he allowed me to see…
He did the same thing to her…The
Knocking at the door…The knife…Throats
Cut…of people torn from her life…
Only she screamed and fought it…
Slammed the door and threw things…
She screamed at the Beast, “I will find
A way to kill you, you bastard, you
Evil devil! Stay away from me!”
Her rage gave me strength to wake
And with her I regained my will
To stand…Fight it…Believe…

Many have written and asked why
So many strange things happened with
My posts in 2015…Why they moved
Around…vanished here and there…
Because the Beast said he would stop
Them…And he did…But I kept going…
I could not believe how right he was…
His power reaches far…I see that now…

That’s why I had to reach out to
The tall mysterious pale one…
The fearless one…Varence…The one
Who told me to trust no one…
And I only answer the questions he
Tells me to…He always said never to
Build a website, so I haven’t…He gave
Me time…instructions…They always came
True…Because the Watchers know
The ways of the Beast…Who else
Would after so long?

But this year the rules changed…
The sisters, each with their own gifts…
They’re that stubborn…They’re that right…

I’m not calling anyone or thing names…
Not at all…What I am trying to explain is
That when this thing threatens, he has
Made it clear he can send a message
And unfortunately use people to do it…
I don’t mean to keep secrets to
Harm anyone or with arrogance…it’s only
Because he’s made it clear he wants to
Stop this…And yes it scares me because
I did not want to do it to begin with…

I did this for them, for those I lost, that
Cannot be replaced…and for those that I
Hope some how, some way, some day can
Benefit from it…I won’t let them be
Forgotten. You have the choice to take this,
Believe it how you want…I understand…
All that I ask is…for you to question…
Keep your mind open…
What is going on in the world?
Is there a higher power, higher powers
At work? Good…Bad? God…Dark forces?

Why hasn’t religion changed the world?
Why are there holy wars?
Why with all the advancements technology
Has made…are things more of a mess
Than ever?
You think too much? Fear mongering?
It’s only fear mongering when someone
Wants to turn a blind eye to things
And keep things the way they are. FACT.

An intelligent person will see there’s a
Problem and say…hey, can we discuss this
Not sit by and chant empty meditations
Or eat a bag of munchies and watch a
Movie…
These are experiences, thoughts and views
To discuss…that is all.

And now a few words…
The Golden Light…streaming, shimmering
On the bridge…

He stood, clear and strong…That fearless
Determined look on his face… “I stepped
Forward,” Varence said, “I reached out…
I did not want my friend here to be alone…
I haven’t called anyone names…”

“But I have,” Ceres said stepping
Forward beside him… “And I don’t care…
I’m here for him, that’s it…And the
Animals…”

Varence smiled and laughed at her words,
“The charm never fades from her words…
She offered more clues months ago
Than most realize…Quantum singularities…”

“Oh. Please,” Ceres rolled her eyes, “That
Bubble is about to burst…For now I
Would watch the sea…” She smiled mysteriously.
“Surprising things that never happened
Before…can happen again…One song
Of the sea…Travels around the world…
Blue planet…So much water…The
Depths that sing a song older and
Wiser than most will ever know…
But miracles can be made that way…”

“I still say nothing has changed.” Varence
Smiled, offering his mysterious wisdom…
In that riddling way. “All those British
Accents in the future…” He said admiring
His hand, opening and flexing it into a fist.
“The world has changed…Old Gods
Dance to a new song…They think we’re
Making the changes? HA…The Beasts
That hide their secrets have been
Doing this since the Roman Empire became
A religion…Justice, truth? Is within
Reach of anyone willing to see it…Maybe
A song will change the world one day…
Songs do answer riddles, remember?” He
Sighed and turned to Ceres… “Please impart
The closing words…”

“Dare I speak to reason with them?”
She said. “You said once my words
Could move mountains? Sound evokes
Movement…A sonic slip could trigger
An accident, unknown cause of course…
By secret societies of course…I would
Still watch the sea, the birds…
If anyone wants to pay attention…
The ones who pay attention…are
Perhaps the bravest of all…But the
Ones who know before hand…You really
Would not want to make them mad
Would you?”
They smiled together…

The bumpy twisty ride…
The swirls of wind…
The songs of the sea…
The box opens…Time to change the locks…
Again.

Valiant.
My artwork: Temptation