Disclosure, Mandalas, Heruka

21 February 2014

(Note from Leslee:This began as a journal entry this morning, as I was venting to my guides about some current frustrations, mostly related my confusion about how and when our Friends might appear here on Earth (Whether that means ETs landing or some major Earth-paradigm shift) . I’ve edited out the profanity and most of the rant…) Ghost Radar words in [brackets like this].

[transmittance]

I’m requesting all the Crew: Buddhas, ETs, whatever you are… [small] I sit here, feeling the intense energies plowing through my consciousness and body, and wondering what is the point. I think we need to stop playing this game; I’m tired. I don’t like ignorance and insensitivity, and I don’t like [forth] having to deal with this swamp that steams and stews of fear and [gave] isolation, separation. [inner-circle] I thought all [tears] of this was leading to some [start] progress for myself and others, and it is moving so slowly. [inundated] Is this worth it?

I’m not saying I quit – I’ve tried that before and I see it doesn’t work. But for goodness’ sake, can’t [something] you give me a little more of a clue about what the heck is going on right now? So many people are struggling so deeply, and are so worried about circumstances. [meat]

Yes… why do I have to eat meat to stay balanced? Why do I have to live in a body that deteriorates? [grey] How does this help? How does this help? I trust that you are there, but it feels like you’re waiting until I reach some point of desperation before you’ll answer my questions in ways that will stick and congeal and collect meaning.  I sit here and type, wondering why. I’m venting, but I could do that with just the pendulum and my own fat a*s. Why do I need to record this? Who will find it, who will read it?

I think I hear you whispering that it all does make a difference, and I need to trust. I’m so frustrated that I cannot see results. I don’t like this arrogant bluster in my head that wants to take and shake people – all of mankind – until they lose their senses and see more clearly.

Okay, I think I’m almost done, I will try to quiet those voices and listen now. Oh, I breathe a deep sigh. It’s a confounding place, this. Alright, I’ll be quiet now and ask for your response. Thank you for listening.

Yes, it’s Heruka. Thank you for blowing off some of that energy. Yes, please use the chart.

Know that many people, more people than are on this earth, benefit by your presence here. Many people love you in ways you can’t imagine.

Oh, yes, I can feel that now (tears…)…

But like quiet storms in perilous oceans, having phalanxes  of “real” [troops octahedron tornado] – yes, that’s me in ghost radar – troops on earth, in this grounded plane, is like tossing them into a tornado.  One is generally not going to survive intact. Even the eye of the storm is constantly moving, so it’s inevitable, the getting tossed about and being flung far and wide. But I know you don’t want to hear that it’s part of the role.

So let’s go a bit deeper.

Seeing Leslee pause (X) crosses out loving Mikos, makes it not possible for him to appear.

You mean that my doubt, anger, frustration – the emotions – prevent him from coming here?

No. It’s hard to put into words. Mikos is there with you. But you cannot see him. You meet him in dreams, in so many aspects, and yet you struggle to bring him with you into your waking life. We will try to offer some suggestions to help with that. That would sustain you more deeply.

Yes, I can feel that, thank you.

You are correct in understanding that Mikos takes you for granted in dreams. That is why he is sometimes quite brazen in approaching you there. See if you can remember to look for him in your dreams, and when you see him, ask him – confront him – to reveal himself and explain to you why things are the way they are between you. Try to remember to set this intention every night as you fall asleep. Let’s see what comes of it.

Now you have other things we need to talk about. Chart again, please.

Once you noun apply (yes, please go make some more coffee) [Sirian]

Shall we start that sentence again?

No, please repeat, including “Sirian”.

Once you noun apply Sirian – Yes: Once your Sirian application of thought forms reaches a level where all manifests within this current sphere of experience, we’ll have lots more phenomena going on, so many people will ask questions. That is what you’re waiting on. We know – it’s like waiting on a train that never arrives, and you don’t even know when to expect it, but you know that you cannot leave the platform and risk missing the train. Much like in your dream last night.

The phrase “application of Sirian thought forms” refers to your Tantric practice. That is your nudge, your clue as to how to tie together Buddhas and ETs. Take it and run with it. But you need to do some more research first.

So, for now… Wait, are you saying that random people doing Tantric practice are helping bring about Disclosure (of many things), even though that may not be an interest of theirs?

Yes. Disclosure – in the broadest sense – will only occur once the energy of the Mandala is strong enough. Please plan to spend the weekend explaining this is more detail.

Abiquor is a Mandala? Cities of Light are Mandalas?

Precisely! Thank you! Now explain what that means. Not right now, but over the next few days.

Don’t worry about scholarship – leave that to others. Just please transcribe what we give you, and share it with others; that is all you need to focus on right now.

Continue with your daily routine as normal, and spend time on the beach. This helps. You will bring forth information that will help all the friends you’ve been emailing with, as well as those who read the posts.

Okay, on with the day.