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Dear friends out there, I’m writing this for those of you that may feel lost but also for my self as well for I was expecting a different start. It is true, I  do feel lonely sometimes and I also do feel a little disappointed.

I thought that the new age would come to our physical state with spaceships landing all over around the globe, aliens and people gathering all together sharing a smile,a hug,a kiss. Obviously that didn’t happen. I thought that I would be relieved by my daily struggle for a better world. Apparently I’m not. I don’t want to sound ungrateful but I can’t help but express the way I feel.

I’m so confused and the only way to feel better is by hearing the ‘voices in my head‘. I can’t meditate, I can’t eat, I can’t share a smile when I’m with the ones that love me.  I cry almost every day. The only thing that helps me to keep going are my dreams. Every dream is helping me to consciously understand things about me and my surroundings. I keep having these signs and sometimes I instantly know what they mean.

This is not the first time that I felt lost and unhappy in my life but I sure hope  that it is the last one . I was never a quitter and I’m not going to start being one now. NO. For now I have the means and tools to fight for what is rightfully mine.

I grew up in a restricting world where you are supposed to believe, think,see, smell, touch and taste whatever they want you to, yet I’m here with my own beliefs, ways to deal with situations, having accomplished things that I thought were possible only in comic books…This is a test and a way for me to show the world my full potential and that’s what I’m going to do. The ones in control of this physical world are growing weak and I can sense it. Though the world didn’t change into what I believed it would, it didn’t remain the same either. I’m in control of my world, not them.

My sincere apologies if some content of this post brings you negativity but I just want to share what’s happening to me right now with all of you. It’s just a phase and I will embrace it for whatever doesn’t kill me, only makes me stronger.I know that you are there for me as I am and always will be there for you, my friends my family.

We stand together and we fight to bring our loving world into a new age that I’m sure is not far away from our doorstep. I will keep fighting not only for the ones that love me but for the ones that hate me as well. I’ve seen things that changed me so much that I can’t possibly hate anyone. Every day I feel my inner self growing stronger in more ways than one. I had a dream the other day, I saw that I was in a huge room and I started floating into the air to a point when I reached the ceiling and then I started falling. Next thing, I woke up and at the very instant I opened my eyes. I felt my entire body hitting against the bed….

Much love and light to all of you:)